18 Weeks

Josh and I went to our 18 week appointment yesterday. The last appointment was at 12 weeks--at that time we could barely hear the baby's heartbeat, but yesterday... WOW! His/her heartbeat was very strong!!! Yay, and it also relieved a lot of my fears and stress when the midwife assured me everything was going well and... that I'm normal.

I can hardly believe I'm in my 5th month already. Time is going by unbelievably fast, and there are days when I'm ready for the baby to be here; I am quite anxious to hold him/her in my arms and see what he/she looks like. I have guesses and feelings about the gender, but we shall see in two weeks. Originally, we had intended to wait until 22 weeks, but the midwife recommended that we do it at 20. It's so exciting that it hardly feels real. Then, there are of course my bad days--when I'm worrying about the health of the baby, or wondering if I will be a good mom. I'm sure every mother-to-be go through these anxieties, but sometimes knowing that isn't very comforting either.

I'm still sick almost everyday. The midwife was a little concerned about my lack of weight gain--oh well. Hopefully I won't be queasy too much longer. It's rather funny that I haven't gained weight, because I do get ravenously hungry every hour or so now adays. Once I'm done teaching, I will devote more time to the fridge and the grocery store. Which reminds me, I went to Kowalski's in Uptown on my way to pick up Josh. I had a grocery list in hand (I was quite surprised that I remembered it) and proceeded to go down every aisle to look for my items. Well, when I arrived at the check-out counter, to my surprise--I hadn't bought a single item on my list, but I had put items in my cart that sounded yummy to me at the time I passed them by. Needless to say, I bought them all (which ended up being rather expensive) and enjoyed myself immensely. I'm still not quite sure if that was a good or bad thing. Sigh. Hopefully, next time I will be able to control myself and buy only the things I need. :)

Well, I'll be sure to let you all know what the gender of the baby is in two weeks! We DO have names picked for both boys and girls, but I"m not sure if we're keeping it a secret or sharing. I guess we'll have to decide soon.

SCARY!

So, I'm at 14 weeks now. Totally excited about the 2nd trimester! But today's post is not about our precious little baby.

I've been taking Josh to work now for the past month or two--since the Audi went kaput! And, almost every morning (unless I am very hormonal and angry) we listen to KTLK on our way to Uptown. I hate politics, I hate thinking about it, and most of all I hate listening to it. Today on the Chris Baker's show, there was a very enlightening and frightening conversation. If this doesn't wake people up, I have NO IDEA what will.

MN state Senator Dick Day was on the show today and talked about how our (ahem) republican governor was "exploring" the idea regarding how to bring in more revenue for our illustrious state without raising income tax. Of course, the democratic state that MN is, we would want to follow the example of Oregon by legislating satellite devices into our cars so that we may be taxed on how many miles we drive. They not only want to legislate and monitor how much we drive, but they want to tell us where we can live (like we need to be within a certain mile radius from our work) and incrase property tax for the incompetent metro transit system (i.e. the $900 mil lightrail system that really doesn't help people that live in rural areas). So, bottom line? Goodbye freedom! Goodbye capitalism and hello socialism... and then some! 

Is this not scary enough for you? Well, let's move on to Washington. So, the Congress is voting to tax 90% of the bonus the certain individuals received from AIG. I don't know enough about AIG to say if these people deserve the bonuses... that's not the point. The money they received is money that they were contracted for. That means that legally, AIG was obligated to pay out that debt using whatever money they had. The government had not put any stipulations as to how AIG was supposed to use the bailout money. Now, if the president signs this bill and it goes through, then the government is using taxes as a punishment. By what right does the US government have to punish those who are receiving payment for a contract that was negotiated? How far will our government go to own us? They keep raising taxes, they bailout companies that should be going bankrupt (so that those companies in turn can raise their prices and cut jobs), and they spend OUR tax money like there is no tomorrow! It is a vicious, never-ending-circle that will not stop... that cannot stop until the government steps out of the private sector and stops spending money on useless things (like infrastructures...i.e. the bridge to nowhere). The president is supposed to protect and uphold the constitution and if he signs this, it is a clear violation of the constitution and he should be impeached! Not that it will change much, but it would be a step in the right direction!

Okay. That's enough ranting. My blood was boiling this morning and I just had to get it out. :) Thank goodness I have other things to occupy my thoughts. 

13 Weeks

The baby and I are at 13 weeks today. I am so happy we're past the 1st trimester! I can definitely tell the changes in my body now: the soft bulge in my belly, fingernails growing like crazy and let's not even talk about my hair! LOL! Everything's growing and that's good. 

Last Thursday, Josh and I were able to listen to the baby's heartbeat. The midwife assured us that the heartbeat is quite strong and everything seems to be going well. Yay! I am still fighting fatigue and nausea--I'm really praying that those symptoms will fade in the next few weeks. It's definitely no fun when foods you usually enjoy makes you sick. I get quite sad when I have to pass up meat, although Big Macs seem to settle pretty well in my tummy. It is so weird! 

Today, Josh went to a Star of Excellence luncehon and was able to get off early. He promised to bring me something to eat on his way home and I really hope he finds some dessert along the way. I am craving cake, donuts, pies... anything sweet except candy! Hopefully it won't last too long so I don't look like a hippo by September! :)

My Thoughts

Well, the baby is 10 weeks and 1 day today. I can't believe how the time is passing, though I know I still have long ways to go.

I wonder if being pregnant makes you think a lot more. I've been up early every morning and I can't seem to stop thinking... thinking about the baby, money, housing, blah blah! Things that I don't really have any control over and I do pray about them, but ugh, my thoughts are out of control! I think it's mostly because my hormones are going crazy and I'm getting irrational and emotional (which REALLY doesn't help!), hehe! It has been really encouraging to talk to other moms so I can gauge how I'm doing-I've been really happy that everyone has been so willing to share with me.

Sometimes as I'm laying at night, I feel so overwhelmed with all the things that I think I should be doing or should have done. I feel like I've never been this tired, even when I used to stay up all night with friends or at college! I think one day last week, I dropped Josh off at work at 8am, came home went back to sleep until 1pm, then fell back asleep (after picking Josh up) at 6 and didn't wake up until the next morning. Strange! I suppose I should store it since I will be needing it after the baby is born.

Well, I think I'm done with the tirade for now. :) I'm looking forward to March--it seems like a lot of things are happening that month. I have another appointment on the 5th, Josh's B-day is the 6th, and I have a recital on the 7th! I pray that everything goes well.

8 Weeks

So, Josh and I went to see the midwife yesterday. I'm exactly 8 weeks pregnant, which means that Wee One is due September 17th! LOL-all the cousins so far will have to celebrate their birthdays together!

Wow! What an experience. We were in our appointment for 2 hours, but the time flew by SO fast! I had a physical, we tried to listen for the baby's heartbeat, but he's too little yet-so thankfully we were able to get an ultrasound that day! Yay!

It was amazing to see him in my belly, still so little, tiny...his little heart was beating so fast! I couldn't stop smiling as we looked at him. Josh will put up the ultrasound pics on his blog, but I wanted to put a color one of a baby in its 8th week. That's what he should be looking like, with a big head, body and little itty bitty arm and leg buds. He's less than an inch long 1.0+ cm--just a wee little one yet.

Seeing him made this pregnancy more real than when we took the test and have it turn positive. It definitely made me more emotional and love the baby even more than I already did. I am awed by the responsibility that we have of raising our baby--keeping him safe, caring for his physical, emotional and spiritual needs. It also makes me pray harder and more often than I ever had, knowing that God has gifted us with this child. It's such a beautiful thing--at this moment in time, I feel as though our lives are so full--I feel overwhelmed!

I'm still hungry and tired all the time, but the nausea seems to be receding its ugly little head. I only hope that it continues to stay away. I so detest being sick! Anyways, I can't wait until the next appointment-that's when the Wee One's going to be exactly 12 weeks! He'll actually have arms and legs!

HUNGRY!!!

I am hungry ALL the TIME!!! Hungry when I'm sleeping so that I will wake up, hungry when I wake so I have to get up...hungry every hour of every day. I never knew how much time eating took! I'm not having cravings, I just eat whatever is in sight. :) Everyone I've talked to assures me that it is normal, but I just wonder...

Thankfully, I really enjoy fruits and vegetables. All the articles I've been reading really pushes those food groups, so apples, oranges, bananas, and V8s have been my in-between-meals snacks. I'm hoping that the hunger pains will slow down soon, but who knows? I'm interested in seeing how much more my body changes between now and the next 7 months. Even though it is still early in the pregnancy, I'm already counting down the months to see the Wee One. I have my first appointment with the midwife in 2 1/2 weeks. I'm praying that everything is good and the baby's growing well and is healthy. Josh and I've already picked names, but I wonder if we won't decide on something else once we see him/her. Before I was pregnant I was hoping for a boy, but now I will be happy with a healthy baby no matter what gender.

I am very tempted to go out and shop for baby things. We've been going to a few stores looking at cribs, strollers, car seats...I even looked at diapers! LOL! I wish we knew what gender the baby was so I could at least buy one outfit, but that won't be for some weeks yet. As all of you know, waiting is NOT one of my attributes. :) We'll be sure to let all of you know once we do find out! :)

Well, I am absolutely amazed by the fact that we are going to have a baby. Josh and I have been trying since May of 2008...not too hard, but still, every month was a disappointment when Auntie Flo (LOL) arrived. It was when we finally gave it up to God--praying that we will be patient and wait on His time rather than ours that it seemed to happen. Funny enough, we didn't know for almost two months that we were!

I'm very grateful that it seems to be going really well. I have nausea throughout the day, but never throwing up-just the uncomfortable feeling that lasts for a few minutes. As I've been reading about the development of the baby, the cramps I've been having is my uterus stretching. I will be more at peace about that after I see the midwife. I'm not quite sure about the due date because I can't remember when my last period was, but it definitely was before Thanksgiving. I'm thinking I'm between 6-8 weeks. We'll know more when I get an ultrasound. I feel so overwhelmed! I feel joy and fear at the same time, praying that everything is going well, that we would be good parents, making sure to eat right...books and internet are SO helpful.

I'll post again after we see the midwife and get an ultrasound. I can't wait!