I can't believe how long it has been since I've updated my blog. Time passes by so quickly!A lot has happened since May. Josh and I moved to our new place--thank you everyone who helped! It was a blessing to have such generous family and friends. Josh also bought me a blue baby grand piano so I can start teaching from home. I haven't started yet, but very hopeful that it will happen soon.
God has been working in great ways to bring Josh and me closer to Him and us to each other. It never ceases to amaze me God's provision for us in all we do. He has slowly been making us aware of our dependence on Him through our everyday-lives and it has been such joy to see it unfold. Josh and I are so thankful for Pastor Tim's wisdom, his understanding of God's Word and his gift of relaying that on Sunday mornings. Christ has been unveiling and making Himself known through Tim's teachings and I am humbled and grateful for that.
My downfall is (and always has been) trying to reach perfection. When I fail, it frustrates me and I get so angry and upset that I couldn't make it on my own. I think sometimes I fail on purpose to feel in control, to say that I did that on purpose in order to maintain some semblance of pride, arrogance...and control. For the longest time, though I thirsted for God, I wanted to maintain my grip on life--to do what I want and not let God reign supreme in me. However, I've come to realize that cannot happen--it is either God or me.
Sometimes the lessons we learn are so painful and this was one of those times. There have been so many situations in my life when I was powerless and because of those situations, I have been fearful of giving all of myself to God. But the joy that comes from the release of the burdens I carried is worth far more than any fear that I have had or will have. It hurt for awhile and I am sure I will fail many more times, but I can only be awed by God's grace and forgiveness for my shortcomings.
That was the highlight of my week. Josh and I are having Anna and Yo Jung over this weekend. We are excited for all the activities that are planned--hopefully we will have great weather for it.
