My Thoughts

Well, the baby is 10 weeks and 1 day today. I can't believe how the time is passing, though I know I still have long ways to go.

I wonder if being pregnant makes you think a lot more. I've been up early every morning and I can't seem to stop thinking... thinking about the baby, money, housing, blah blah! Things that I don't really have any control over and I do pray about them, but ugh, my thoughts are out of control! I think it's mostly because my hormones are going crazy and I'm getting irrational and emotional (which REALLY doesn't help!), hehe! It has been really encouraging to talk to other moms so I can gauge how I'm doing-I've been really happy that everyone has been so willing to share with me.

Sometimes as I'm laying at night, I feel so overwhelmed with all the things that I think I should be doing or should have done. I feel like I've never been this tired, even when I used to stay up all night with friends or at college! I think one day last week, I dropped Josh off at work at 8am, came home went back to sleep until 1pm, then fell back asleep (after picking Josh up) at 6 and didn't wake up until the next morning. Strange! I suppose I should store it since I will be needing it after the baby is born.

Well, I think I'm done with the tirade for now. :) I'm looking forward to March--it seems like a lot of things are happening that month. I have another appointment on the 5th, Josh's B-day is the 6th, and I have a recital on the 7th! I pray that everything goes well.

8 Weeks

So, Josh and I went to see the midwife yesterday. I'm exactly 8 weeks pregnant, which means that Wee One is due September 17th! LOL-all the cousins so far will have to celebrate their birthdays together!

Wow! What an experience. We were in our appointment for 2 hours, but the time flew by SO fast! I had a physical, we tried to listen for the baby's heartbeat, but he's too little yet-so thankfully we were able to get an ultrasound that day! Yay!

It was amazing to see him in my belly, still so little, tiny...his little heart was beating so fast! I couldn't stop smiling as we looked at him. Josh will put up the ultrasound pics on his blog, but I wanted to put a color one of a baby in its 8th week. That's what he should be looking like, with a big head, body and little itty bitty arm and leg buds. He's less than an inch long 1.0+ cm--just a wee little one yet.

Seeing him made this pregnancy more real than when we took the test and have it turn positive. It definitely made me more emotional and love the baby even more than I already did. I am awed by the responsibility that we have of raising our baby--keeping him safe, caring for his physical, emotional and spiritual needs. It also makes me pray harder and more often than I ever had, knowing that God has gifted us with this child. It's such a beautiful thing--at this moment in time, I feel as though our lives are so full--I feel overwhelmed!

I'm still hungry and tired all the time, but the nausea seems to be receding its ugly little head. I only hope that it continues to stay away. I so detest being sick! Anyways, I can't wait until the next appointment-that's when the Wee One's going to be exactly 12 weeks! He'll actually have arms and legs!