Sunday, July 18, 2010
Thursday, July 15, 2010
How Precious Is Your Steadfast Love
I've been really meditating on Psalm 36 the past few days--it has been such a comfort to me! I would like to share it with you all.
36:5-9 Your steadfast love, O LORD, extends to the heavens, your faithfulness to the clouds. Your righteousness is like the mountains of God; your judgments are like the great deep; man and beast you save, O LORD. How precious is your steadfast love, O God! The children of mankind take refuge in the shadow of your wings. They feast on the abundance of your house, and you give them drink from the river of your delights. For with you is the fountain of life; in your light do we see light.
My thoughts have been so scattered--coming and going--twirling like a whirlwind. I couldn't seem to focus and Iwasn't sure what to feel. When I found these verses, it was like an immediate silence came over and it calmed me. The Lord definitely led me to this passage to show me how great He is and that He is soverign over all things, including my pain and my loss. Because I kept asking God, "why?!"
The Lord has blessed us so abundantly--materially and spiritually! The Father sent His Son to be cruelly subjected to a death that I can't even imagine and yet, I would deny my child the grace of heaven. If the pregnancy wasn't going right and Reagan would have been born in pain, being with God is infinitely better than anything that we could have offered him/her here. My selfishness astounds me and shames me.
God, in His redemptive grace has changed my heart and my thoughts. I long, even more than I did, for Jesus' coming and the renewing of all things so that we may be all that we were meant to be, so that all our thoughts may be directed towards the good of others and to the glory of Christ. I have all that to look forward to as well as meeting Reagan.
Thank you all--family and friends--for your love and prayers. We have felt them and we thank God so much for all your support. It is SO good to know you are all here and how great must be the Father's love for us to be so blessed.
We love you!
Shinae
36:5-9 Your steadfast love, O LORD, extends to the heavens, your faithfulness to the clouds. Your righteousness is like the mountains of God; your judgments are like the great deep; man and beast you save, O LORD. How precious is your steadfast love, O God! The children of mankind take refuge in the shadow of your wings. They feast on the abundance of your house, and you give them drink from the river of your delights. For with you is the fountain of life; in your light do we see light.
My thoughts have been so scattered--coming and going--twirling like a whirlwind. I couldn't seem to focus and Iwasn't sure what to feel. When I found these verses, it was like an immediate silence came over and it calmed me. The Lord definitely led me to this passage to show me how great He is and that He is soverign over all things, including my pain and my loss. Because I kept asking God, "why?!"
The Lord has blessed us so abundantly--materially and spiritually! The Father sent His Son to be cruelly subjected to a death that I can't even imagine and yet, I would deny my child the grace of heaven. If the pregnancy wasn't going right and Reagan would have been born in pain, being with God is infinitely better than anything that we could have offered him/her here. My selfishness astounds me and shames me.
God, in His redemptive grace has changed my heart and my thoughts. I long, even more than I did, for Jesus' coming and the renewing of all things so that we may be all that we were meant to be, so that all our thoughts may be directed towards the good of others and to the glory of Christ. I have all that to look forward to as well as meeting Reagan.
Thank you all--family and friends--for your love and prayers. We have felt them and we thank God so much for all your support. It is SO good to know you are all here and how great must be the Father's love for us to be so blessed.
We love you!
Shinae
Monday, July 12, 2010
Reagan Warren
Today, July 12th, 2010--our baby Reagan Warren went to be with Jesus. Some of you knew that we were expecting, and to others this is a total surprise.
I started to bleed significantly this morning and had an ultrasound this afternoon and found out that we miscarried. It has been an a trying day for us, to say the least--but God has been so faithful and full of grace! The healing process has already begun and both Josh and I know that little Reagan is with God and one day, we will get to meet him/her.
Physically, I'm okay. There's no complications and even the cramping is not bad. Emotionally, I think this will be a long journey. I know in my head that Reagan is in a better place and that he/she will never have to know suffering and pain-but I sure do miss him. Our hearts hurt and I'm not sure quite how to deal with that. There's been lots of tears already and I'm sure there will be more to come. The most important thing is that God be glorified in this, even though it is so painful and that we trust Him to know and do what is right and good. And He is good!
I think it will be hard to talk about the baby for awhile, but don't feel bad to talk to me about it--please. I won't say that I would love to talk about it, but I'm not against it. I don't know if that makes sense.
Anyways, thank you for all your prayers--those of you who have been with us along the way, and thank you to those of you that will be praying for us.
Shinae
I started to bleed significantly this morning and had an ultrasound this afternoon and found out that we miscarried. It has been an a trying day for us, to say the least--but God has been so faithful and full of grace! The healing process has already begun and both Josh and I know that little Reagan is with God and one day, we will get to meet him/her.
Physically, I'm okay. There's no complications and even the cramping is not bad. Emotionally, I think this will be a long journey. I know in my head that Reagan is in a better place and that he/she will never have to know suffering and pain-but I sure do miss him. Our hearts hurt and I'm not sure quite how to deal with that. There's been lots of tears already and I'm sure there will be more to come. The most important thing is that God be glorified in this, even though it is so painful and that we trust Him to know and do what is right and good. And He is good!
I think it will be hard to talk about the baby for awhile, but don't feel bad to talk to me about it--please. I won't say that I would love to talk about it, but I'm not against it. I don't know if that makes sense.
Anyways, thank you for all your prayers--those of you who have been with us along the way, and thank you to those of you that will be praying for us.
Shinae
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